And the fun continues

I've managed to empty four boxes of crap this evening.  All paperwork that I really needed to go through.  I keep everything.  I even had receipts from the first time I bought maternity clothes!  I was so excited to be pregnant that I wanted to remember everything.  The pay stubs from 20 years ago finally went.  All this while watching more Star Wars and talking with Ali on the phone!

I also might be missing my girls.  They wear me out.  The really do.  I'm so tired at the end of the day some days that all I want to do is cry.  BUT I miss them sooooo much!
<------------------I love this picture!  This was during a rather rough patch in weather this summer.  There they all are on the floor of my micro-kitchen.  Yep.  They are covering the ENTIRE floor space in my kitchen.  Somedays (ok most days) I really wish I had a bigger kitchen.  This room is the inner most room in our apartment.  From L to R is Megan (holding Ella Enchanted), Brigid, Abigail, and Caroline.  Caroline is the lump under the yellow and white blanket (didi).  They were so scared and so tired that they just passed out.  A friend keeps trying to get me to buy a house.  I gotta tell you I love being able to call my landlord if something breaks. I'm not responsible financially for the big stuff that goes wrong.  So I guess I'll take my micro-kitchen over a mortgage anyday.

 Here's another picture I love.  My advanced program kid right there.  I'll not explain any further.  I mean, really, there is no explanation for this.  Other than I love this kid.  It's been a long time since I've seen Megan being silly.  I gotta tell you I LOVE it.

Here's another picture that I love.   All four girls swimming at our apartment pool.  I can tell you if I owned my home it wouldn't have a pool.  We had the whole pool to ourselves that day.  All the fun with none of the expense or maintenance.  That was a lovely afternoon.  Makes feel rich just thinking about it!





Well back to my Star Wars marathon.  The Empire Strikes back.  I've been watching Star Wars all day. 

Geez I need to find  guy.  Just don't tell him what a nerd I am.  :)

I need a hobby

So I'm back on here.  Being off FB is hard!!   Aaarrrggghhhh!  So with all this available time I'm searching the internet for various things.  Like Megan's birthMother.  I know I shouldn't.  I really shouldn't.  I should just respect her privacy.  But I want to see a picture.  Just one picture.  And see?  I used the word "but".  Dr. Phil says that when you use the word "but" you negate the words right before the word "but".  Like I know I'm fat BUT I love food.  I might as well just say I love food.  At this rate, I'll have an entire book written before Tuesday.  I told Ali this is what happens when I'm without kids for 3 days.  My brain gets working.  Sometimes for good.  Sometimes not so much.  I need my friend Michele S. to give me some pointers on how to search for someone.  I do pretty well on my own though. 

By the way, here is a recent picture of me.  I look rather snazzy here.  Not like a Mom of 4 kiddos.  At least I would like to think that.  One of the few decent pics of me.  Usually there are pictures of my feet in everything because I really don't like pics of myself posted anywhere.  BUT I needed a good pic for my match.com account. 

<-----------------  Now who wouldn't want to date this?  It might have something to do with the fact that I am fat.  Or maybe it's the fact that I have 4 kids, 3 of whom are triplets.  I'm quite the catch don't you think?   I might have also mentioned that I like the Star Wars movies.  That might have been one detail too many.  I mean who wouldn't want to date a fat, Star Wars-loving gal like me?

I need a hobby. 

Yep. I'm blogging again.

So I gave up Facebook for awhile and now I'm going through withdrawals.  I'm used to checking it many times a day.  Since I don't have that to do I'm finding time today to clean my filthy apartment.  Something about depression and not cleaning that go hand in hand.  I hate depression.  I really do.  It is an effort to get up everyday and do my job.  I'm trying to adjust to a change in meds and am hoping that change occurs quickly.  I really don't have time for apathy.  It's like that wonderful line in Star Wars about hate leading to suffering (ok so I'm watching the Star Wars marathon on Spike TV today).  Depression leads to apathy leads to disorganization leads to suffering.  At least that is how it feels.  So today I am following my own best advice:  You can't wait to feel better to get moving, you have to get moving to feel better.  Today I am making myself move when all I really want to do is sleep.  I know that if I crawl in that bed I will not get up and things in this apartment will only get worse.  Right now I'm tackling the 3rd bathroom.  Since we've only need the two bathrooms, the third bathroom has been turned into a storage room.  Only I want to start using that bathroom again. Now I'm knee deep in papers and boxes.  The girls are with their Dad this weekend.  This does give me the opportunity to get lots done.  Back to the paperwork I go. 

I'm sure I will be back on here soon.

I'm baaaaccckkkk!!!!

Wow it's been almost a year since I've written anything on here.  My sister's birthday to be exact last November.  Facebook is a big reason why I stopped updating.  That and I Think the desire to hide my life from certain people.  But now I don't care about hiding.  I am who I am.  Flaws and all.  I never claimed to be perfect.  Just trying to make my way in the world the best way I know how.  Here is what has been happening in a nutshell (because a nut is exactly who I am).

Brigid had two surgeries.  The first in December was for her kidneys.  She had the upper right portion of her right kidney removed.  She should have been in overnight.  Instead we were there for 5 days.  It was a rough way to go for her for those first few days.  The good news is that she has almost no symptoms to speak of. 






Brigid and our Lt. Govenor who came to visit

We had a fabulous Christmas thanks to some amazing angels:

Brigid and a whole lotta presents

We then pretty much jumped right into the year with the knowledge that Brigid was going to have to brain surgery.  She has a Chiari Malformation.  In it's most basic description, Brigid's brain sits too far back on her spinal column.  She had major surgery that required SEVEN days in the hospital.  That poor kid!  She is now almost completely symptom free.  We also learned that because Brigid is a triplet, her sisters carry a higher than normal chance of having it themselves.  And wouldn't you know it...Caroline has one as well.  Right now we are taking a wait and see approach to her Chiari.  Her symptoms though are much more pronounced than Brigid's.  She has daily headaches.

Brigid's incision

Brigid had LOTS of headaches at first

Caroline and Abigail waiting to have their MRIs

So that took up most of our Spring.  I'm still at the same preschool.  Only now I am the assistant manager.  It's been a long summer with some staff changes but I think we are finally in an upswing.  The best part is we are completely full with a waiting list!

Megan graduated 5th grade.  It was bittersweet.  I hated that she was leaving Field and I would now have children at two different schools.  Though I am excited at being the parent of a middle schooler!!  That amazing young lady got into the advanced program math/science/technology magnet at Meyzeek.  She is that smart.

Last day of 5th grade

The other amazing thing Megan did was to take part in a 3 week long Arabic camp this summer.  She was in with other middle and high school students.  3 weeks of intensive schooling.  What kind of a kid wants to do that??  Megan, that's who.  Such a driven, intelligent young lady.  I am lucky to be her Mom.

Yep.  She ended up in the paper

Abigail continues to plug along singing her heart out.  We went to a Disney garden party at the Disney Store and Abby got to dress up as her idol:

Guess who??

The trio made their First Communion this May:

Here we are!

We live in the same place with some amazing neighbors.  It's good to be standing still for awhile.  I'm Blessed to have the best friends a person could ever ask for.  It truly does take a village.  In this case anyway.

Ali and I have started outlining our book.  It's hard to find the time to sit down and write but we are making an effort. 

My goal is to continue to write here.  I've stepped away from FB for awhile.  It seems that it is too easy to become envious of others and all that they have.  I'm a big believer in attitude and gratitude.  Neither of which I have had in a long time.  It's tme for me to have an attitude adjustment. More to


 More to come...

RIP Lisa

My sister Lisa's birthday is today. She would have been 48.  I had a few pictures on my computer of her.  I don't have many of her once she started down the path of her addiction but her are some of the better ones of her.  I miss her.  I mostly miss the person Lisa COULD have been.  But today I will simply say a prayer for her.  I miss her. 

 This was from 3 years ago at Megan's First Communion.  She was healthy here but years of abuse and take it's toll.

 Mom, me, and Lisa from the rehearsal dinner for my wedding.  It makes me sad to think that I am the only one still living from this picture.  Lisa was doing pretty well here and looked good.

Lisa was struggling here.  She is holding Megan.  She loved Megan.

Something to think about

"Christ has no body on earth but yours, no hands but yours, no feet but yours. Yours are the eyes through which Christ's compassion for the world is to look out; yours are the feet with which He is to go about doing good; and yours are the hands with which He is to bless us now.". -St. Teresa of Avila

My Thankfulness

These are the things I am most thankful for on this rainy Thanksgiving afternoon.  These are not in any particular order of importance.  I'm just going to let it flow as it pops into my crowded brain.

God for Blessing me with my Faith, Grace, and life
My amazing children who forever push me to be a better person for them
My family
my job and the wonderful women I teach with everyday
my boss for talking a chance on me when few would and who still believes in me everyday
the students I teach and their parents for trusting me everyday to take care of their most favorite people
my apartment
Ali, Bob, Dylan, Zane, Abraham, Jack, Tobias
Erik, Evan, Ana
Tim, Kim, Amelia, Jack, John, Sandy
my triplet Mom friends in Louisville
my Moms of Multiples friends on Facebook
my neighbors
the girls' friends
Shannon
Megan B. Lee, Katie S., April, and the playground Moms and siblings
Field Elementary
Mindy and Leisha
my van
my health
the Family Health Center Portland
Brigid's doctor
my cats and guinea pigs
music
love
shoes and purses
my bed
keeping busy
the internet
cable
warm socks
food because Lord knows I love to eat
my ex (no I haven't lost my mind-I have children with him)
Tuesday night Cindy B.
Mary and Joe, Ali and Ashley
Nickolodeon and the Disney channel
my church

I will add to this list.  Because I am always and eternally greatful for my life.  For myself and all my mistake-making faults.  I try to practice gratitude everyday.  Even if all I can say is "I got up in the morning." Because on somedays that is the greatest miracle.

I am thankful. 

Can you say that today?