My Life in a Nut Shell

3 surgeries for Endometriosis, countless medications, and lots of difficult years trying to conceive. We put the medical stuff on hold and decided to work on being parents instead. In July of 2000 we were blessed beyond all measure with a phone call announcing the birth of our daughter, Megan. Megan's birth mother had given birth the day before and was leaving the hospital. We had no warning that Megan was coming. At 4:29 in the afternoon we were a couple, at 4:30 we were parents. Deciding that we wanted a sibling for Megan, we looked into all our options. This time insurance covered IVF. One round and we were blessed with triplets, Abigail, Brigid, and Caroline. Did you know that there is a 70% chance of divorce in families of Higher Order Multiples? Almost two years after the triplets were born my ex-husband and I separated and eventually divorced. During that time both my Mother and Father passed away from cancer. In February of 2007 my sister came to live with us to help out. In December of 2008 she had to leave so now it is me on my own with the girls. In February 2010, Lisa passed away and finally found her own Peace.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010


Today I write with a heavy heart.  I realize that I write a lot about Megan.  With the trio I often feel that they have each other.  Megan has no one but me.  And tonight she is hurting.  Really hurting.  She has been so angry lately.  I never feel like I can do enough for her.  And tonight I think I finally made a break-through with her.  I knew a big part of why she has been hurting.  It's just that tonight she finally put it into words.  She misses her Dad.  She really misses her Dad.  I just don't know how to help.  I've talked with him before about how much she needs him.  And I think when it comes from me he thinks I am somehow manipulating him to my own devices.  If he could have heard her tonight I think he would realize just how much she needs him in her life beyond every other weekend.  

Megan needs you.

Abigail, Brigid, and Caroline need you. 


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