My Life in a Nut Shell

3 surgeries for Endometriosis, countless medications, and lots of difficult years trying to conceive. We put the medical stuff on hold and decided to work on being parents instead. In July of 2000 we were blessed beyond all measure with a phone call announcing the birth of our daughter, Megan. Megan's birth mother had given birth the day before and was leaving the hospital. We had no warning that Megan was coming. At 4:29 in the afternoon we were a couple, at 4:30 we were parents. Deciding that we wanted a sibling for Megan, we looked into all our options. This time insurance covered IVF. One round and we were blessed with triplets, Abigail, Brigid, and Caroline. Did you know that there is a 70% chance of divorce in families of Higher Order Multiples? Almost two years after the triplets were born my ex-husband and I separated and eventually divorced. During that time both my Mother and Father passed away from cancer. In February of 2007 my sister came to live with us to help out. In December of 2008 she had to leave so now it is me on my own with the girls. In February 2010, Lisa passed away and finally found her own Peace.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Say Yes to the Dress

It's Friday night.  I'm doing my usual.  I have four kids passed out on the floor downstairs.  Actually only three.  Number four is in my bed.  It's something I don't let happen very often but Brigid has had a rough way to go this week.  Friday nights in this house mean sleeping on the living room floor and watching the wedding marathon on TLC.  I love weddings.  I love everything about weddings.  The dress, the music, the floors, the reception, the promise and the hope that is represented by a wedding.  Everything.  I loved getting married.  I loved the excitement.  I LOVED my dress.

I'm pretty sure I tried this dress on almost everyday before the wedding.  I love my Mom here too.  That red dress looked amazing on her!!

I've been single for over 6 years.  There have been a few guys I dated.  One of whom I had fallen in love with.  Yet here I am today on a Friday night watching a wedding marathon and wishing it were me who was getting married.  I want the excitement of getting married again.   I want to feel that love.  I want to be in love with someone.  I want someone to love me. 

I'm very proud of being on my own.  I'm making it work.  My girls are growing up realizing that they each are responsible for taking care of themselves and making themselves happy.

No partner can save us, deliver us or give meaning to our lives. The source of our salvation, deliverance and meaning is within us. - Marianne Williamson
This doesn't mean that I don't want to find someone.  I've been on over the last 6 years without much luck.  I suppose on paper that I am not the most desirable person out there.  I'm chunky, I have 4 kids, I'm not Cameron Diaz.  I imagine we five ladies would be a lot to handle!
So I'll continue to have my Friday evening wedding fantasies.  But if any of you know a single wealthy, kindhearted man, please send him my way.  I'll even invite you to the wedding. 

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